The going outs and the coming ins...


I have been thinking a lot lately about the going outs and the coming ins in my life.

As I get older I find that I'm more and more the introvert. The "coming ins" are beginning to outnumber the "going outs" if that makes any sense. The peace and quiet of my home - and studio when I manage to get there these days - are where I find the moments of grace that inspire me. That being said, there is still so much I hope to do out there and I am all too aware that to live that part of my dream means I must do more going out in all the ways that I am often so reluctant to do.

One of my favorite books is priest, poet, and philosopher John O'Donohue's  To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Invocations and Blessings. In the last line of his blessing, "To Come Home to Yourself" he writes:

May all that is unlived in you

Blossom into a future

Graced with love.

It is the notion of  "all that is unlived in you" that really strikes a cord today. I suspect I'm not alone in feeling that I haven't really lived up to my potential,  or that I'm not using my gifts  - offering my gifts - in the myriad of ways I think I should.  Or could.

Or that, more often than not, I take them -  and the whole of life if I'm being truly honest - for granted.

I need to think about that a while. 

Because I want very much to have the "unlived" in me come to life.

I really would like it  to "blossom into a future graced by love."

I need to own that can only make that happen if better balance "the going outs" and the "coming ins".