It seems that events are determined to completely derail my studio practice.
It can be frustrating.
"What???" screams my artist self. "Things don't revolve around me and what I want? I'm expected to put myself second sometimes? Or third??? What about my work? I need to be in the studio! I need to be there NOW!!!"
And it can be really, really humbling.
Because when I consider that my life is full and sweet to the point of overflowing, I can't get upset. I'm needed elsewhere right now, that's all.
I'm needed by people that I love and who love me.
I'm needed and I'm loved.
How lucky am I to be able to say that!? And how lucky am I to even have a studio that awaits my return?
There is time enough for everything. I won't wish this time away, even though I yearn to be in the studio. There are lessons to learn in the things that I'm doing now. I'll get to the studio again. When time allows. And I'll return all the richer for the experiences I'm having while away.
Until then I will write these words on my heart:
There is a difference between letting go and giving up.
Today I will practice letting go.
Today I will practice contentment and happiness.
Like my Hotei.