I have been thinking a lot lately about the going outs and the coming ins in my life.
As I get older I find that I'm more and more the introvert. The "coming ins" are beginning to outnumber the "going outs" if that makes any sense. The peace and quiet of my home - and studio when I manage to get there these days - are where I find the moments of grace that inspire me. That being said, there is still so much I hope to do out there and I am all too aware that to live that part of my dream means I must do more going out in all the ways that I am often so reluctant to do.
One of my favorite books is priest, poet, and philosopher John O'Donohue's To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Invocations and Blessings. In the last line of his blessing, "To Come Home to Yourself" he writes:
May all that is unlived in you
Blossom into a future
Graced with love.
It is the notion of "all that is unlived in you" that really strikes a cord today. I suspect I'm not alone in feeling that I haven't really lived up to my potential, or that I'm not using my gifts - offering my gifts - in the myriad of ways I think I should. Or could.
Or that, more often than not, I take them - and the whole of life if I'm being truly honest - for granted.
I need to think about that a while.
Because I want very much to have the "unlived" in me come to life.
I really would like it to "blossom into a future graced by love."
I need to own that can only make that happen if better balance "the going outs" and the "coming ins".